Friday, July 15, 2011
Time has moved on
It's been a year since I last posted. It has been a very active year taking care of my mom. I have continued to depend on friends and family to keep me sane. It is so hard to watch one's mother become so much less than she was. I just haven't had the desire to post my feelings. It's like once they are in black and white they become real. I don't want any of my less than positive feelings on paper. I guess I am a true Gemini in that one part of me feels so much love for her and another part of me is tired and wants a break. I'm sure that my feelings are not unique. I just wish that I could do more, but when I think about it I am doing more than I expected to do and she wants for nothing. I have no regrets.
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I feel for you. I took care of my mother through her sudden terminal illness. When she was gone, I missed her so terribly and was so relieved to not be carrying the burden anymore. Both feelings being perfectly valid. I had to force myself to get out for a few hours, to engage in some other activity. It was during this period that I began stamping and paper crafting, because as Mom dwindled, I became housebound along with her. Creating became a great comfort, a release and a renewal of spirit. I am glad you have no regrets! That is so important!
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